Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Is it just wishful thinking????????????
Maybe it is but I gave Jayden a does of her canker medicine at 5pm so by 9 it should have been wearing off and she usually would start complaining. It does not look any better to me, but without giving her a dose before dinner like I normally would she ate corn, mac n cheese and garlic bread. That has to be a sign that some of the pain is going away. I so hope so!!!!!!! We shall see in the morning but at the moment it looks like there might be an end in sight. Thank you God for answering our prayers!!
first thoughts early in the morning.......
Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you.
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you.
A prayer offered up in faith will restore the one who is sick...... James 5:15
Ok, I of all people I know canker sores and how painful they are. I have suffered with them my entire life or at least for as long as I can remember. I have had up to 4 in my mouth at a time. But something I just cant handle is when my daughter gets them. For a while at the beginning of the summer we were having problems with her getting them all the time till I read somewhere that it might be a vitamin deficiency so we put her on vitamins and after a few weeks her canker problems seemed to go away. Now we were down to her having a small one every now and then.
But this past week, two things happened:
1. We were moving and though it is no excuse and I cant help but think its my fault. I just got off schedule of making sure she took them everyday
2. She just had a bad bought of a stomach virus that the pharmacist said could leave her with some cankers due to the acidity she had when she was throwing up.
one or both of these I am guessing is the cause for two cankers in her mouth right now, one being the inside corner and about the size of my pinkie nail. It is so painful for her she can hardly swallow her own spit much less anything else. Its the kind of canker that simply throbs no matter what you do.
Last night was sleepless and she would wake up every hour moaning and discomforted by all the pain. This morning she got a few hours of sleep and then the rest of the day was accompanied by pain and no food and several random sips of milk. So, this afternoon I went to the pharmacist at HEB who told me about a over the counter medicine that I should try. When I got home she laid down on the couch and amazingly enough fell asleep for about 2 hours. When she woke up the pain was worse than ever and her cheek actually looked swollen and her lips dried and cracked from her lack of moving them and liquid inside her so I forced her to let me put this medicine on her sore. She was irate and screamed bloody murder but I guess it worked because she continued to sleep and then woke up in wonderful spirits and had 2 bowls of ice cream (I know, I am a horrible parent) and for the first time in two days she was in wonderful spirits and pain free.
The only downside was the almost 5 hour nap she took in the evening time. So here we are up till 11:45 playing because she cannot sleep. When I realized it was getting close to midnight and the medicine would be wearing off soon I told her to brush our teeth. For the first time in two days she let me get over and brush her teeth on that side of her mouth for like 2 seconds and then I could tell the pain was coming back, SO......... we went through the irate screaming one more time, I put the medicine on and then I drew a warm bath and bathed her, washed her hair and loved on her in the tub. I got her out put her jammies on, put her in bed and I don't think she stayed awake even a minute after that.
Now its 12:40am and I am so exhausted but more than anything I ache for my little girl. A three year old should not experience theses kinds of cankers. I hope it is nothing other than the side effects of her being sick and having that flu. I have prayed for her every night for the past two nights that God would take her pain away because I knew that He could and because He loves her more than Jonathan or I could love her. I wish he had chosen to take her pain away.
Faith is where I ALWAYS struggle. Its plain and simple, I don't have faith most of the time. I try to but deep down I guess a lot of times I don't feel he will answer my prayers. I take them to God already assuming He wont answer them and I know that's wrong. I know God says to ask in "faith" without any doubting but I think I ask things and pray for things already doubting and I don't even realize its my attitude. I need so much help in the area of faith. How do I build that up??
Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God." STILL ... what a simple concept and one I can not seem to accomplish.
But this past week, two things happened:
1. We were moving and though it is no excuse and I cant help but think its my fault. I just got off schedule of making sure she took them everyday
2. She just had a bad bought of a stomach virus that the pharmacist said could leave her with some cankers due to the acidity she had when she was throwing up.
one or both of these I am guessing is the cause for two cankers in her mouth right now, one being the inside corner and about the size of my pinkie nail. It is so painful for her she can hardly swallow her own spit much less anything else. Its the kind of canker that simply throbs no matter what you do.
Last night was sleepless and she would wake up every hour moaning and discomforted by all the pain. This morning she got a few hours of sleep and then the rest of the day was accompanied by pain and no food and several random sips of milk. So, this afternoon I went to the pharmacist at HEB who told me about a over the counter medicine that I should try. When I got home she laid down on the couch and amazingly enough fell asleep for about 2 hours. When she woke up the pain was worse than ever and her cheek actually looked swollen and her lips dried and cracked from her lack of moving them and liquid inside her so I forced her to let me put this medicine on her sore. She was irate and screamed bloody murder but I guess it worked because she continued to sleep and then woke up in wonderful spirits and had 2 bowls of ice cream (I know, I am a horrible parent) and for the first time in two days she was in wonderful spirits and pain free.
The only downside was the almost 5 hour nap she took in the evening time. So here we are up till 11:45 playing because she cannot sleep. When I realized it was getting close to midnight and the medicine would be wearing off soon I told her to brush our teeth. For the first time in two days she let me get over and brush her teeth on that side of her mouth for like 2 seconds and then I could tell the pain was coming back, SO......... we went through the irate screaming one more time, I put the medicine on and then I drew a warm bath and bathed her, washed her hair and loved on her in the tub. I got her out put her jammies on, put her in bed and I don't think she stayed awake even a minute after that.
Now its 12:40am and I am so exhausted but more than anything I ache for my little girl. A three year old should not experience theses kinds of cankers. I hope it is nothing other than the side effects of her being sick and having that flu. I have prayed for her every night for the past two nights that God would take her pain away because I knew that He could and because He loves her more than Jonathan or I could love her. I wish he had chosen to take her pain away.
Faith is where I ALWAYS struggle. Its plain and simple, I don't have faith most of the time. I try to but deep down I guess a lot of times I don't feel he will answer my prayers. I take them to God already assuming He wont answer them and I know that's wrong. I know God says to ask in "faith" without any doubting but I think I ask things and pray for things already doubting and I don't even realize its my attitude. I need so much help in the area of faith. How do I build that up??
Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God." STILL ... what a simple concept and one I can not seem to accomplish.
Monday, October 13, 2008
First week of Menu Planning Monday
Okay, so I guess I am going to try to back into the swing of things when it comes to cooking. I love cooking and planning meals and trying new things but lately I have gotten very complacent....okay fine, lazy. It was so easy when we were packing and moving to make excuses to eat out and not cook but now that I am settled into my new home I really want to focus on getting back on track. The thing that makes it the most difficult I think is finding new things to cook. I am in a cooking RUT!!!! If anyone knows any recipes they think I should try, please give them to me and likewise if you see something on my menu you are interested in, just ask.Monday
Bacon wrapped fillets
Mashed Potatoes
steamed veggies (carrots, broccoli and cauliflower)
Garlic bread
Chocolate chip cookies
Tuesday
Ground turkey spaghetti
Steamed veggies (corn and green beans)
Garlic bread
dessert
Wednesday
is always leftovers or something quick because it is AWANAS and small group night
Thursday
Beef Tacos
rice and beans
dessert
Friday
Is Jayden's fall festival at school and I luck out on cooking because we are eating there.
I totally went for easy this week as I am easing myself back into the mode of things.... but hopefully by putting it out there for all to see, it is giving me a level of accountability!
Bacon wrapped fillets
Mashed Potatoes
steamed veggies (carrots, broccoli and cauliflower)
Garlic bread
Chocolate chip cookies
Tuesday
Ground turkey spaghetti
Steamed veggies (corn and green beans)
Garlic bread
dessert
Wednesday
is always leftovers or something quick because it is AWANAS and small group night
Thursday
Beef Tacos
rice and beans
dessert
Friday
Is Jayden's fall festival at school and I luck out on cooking because we are eating there.
I totally went for easy this week as I am easing myself back into the mode of things.... but hopefully by putting it out there for all to see, it is giving me a level of accountability!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
In the mood to ponder on the things that make me happy!!
as I sit in the office and look outside and see our backyard and beautiful trees I am so overwhelmed with joy. Let us all try to re-focus on the good and not the bad and on finding the Joy of the Lord in every day.
So ...
So ...
Things that make me happy ...
1. the moment that the sun breaks on a winters day
2. when a sleepy little girl wants a back scratch
3. making my husband a lunch that I know will fill his stomach, reduce the stress on his wallet and contains something he wasn't expecting
4. phone calls that stretch across states and connect hearts (even if face to face would make me happier)
5. that feeling following prayer when you've purged your heart and a weight has been lifted
6. dinner and coffee with friends
7. FALL ... finally, my sweatshirts are able to make an appearance
8. hot chocolate with my husband
9. friends who share laughter and tears
10. laundry that is done, folded and put away
11. cold sheets occupied by warm hearts
12. the promise of a date with my husband
13. music that leads me into worship, even if I'm cleaning the toilet
14. "light bulb moments" when we're trying to learn a new skill
15. people who want to be known
16. Christmas season
17. hot soup and warm bread (yes, even I like the occasional soup)
18. the feeling I get when house guests are about to arrive for a night of dinner and games- it's the same feeling that I used to get when I was young and trying to go to sleep before Christmas morning ... I just love preparing to have people over
19. knowing that I've helped someone
20. driving nowhere with Jonathan
21. camping!! I cannot wait to experience it in the fall
22. knowing my husband is coming home
23. completing a project (why don't I do this more if I like it so much ... hmmm)
24. did I mention Christmas???
25. the memory of the ocean crashing against the beach ...someday I could live in Cali again
26. baked sweet potatoes.... what the heck, the whole Thanksgiving meal!!
27. New kitchen appliances, they just make me giddy
28. new tennis shoes (New Balance please)
29. books that captivate me for a time
30. my new brownie recipe ... I think it's about time for a batch!
Snapshots Into My Life
I don't know why I am even willing to do this while I am only 5 days into moving but I guess its because I know I am not perfect and I don't pretend to be. So here is my life........oh and by the way I tag Jenny and Anne and Becky.
So the rules to Snapshots Into My Life are simple. You just take pictures of what it asks you to the minute you want to do this. No fixing anything, no staging anything, just candid pictures.
Favorite Destination is Cozumel Mexico! I don't know if I will ever be able to go back to this place but it was the first real vacation we ever took as a family. It was one of the most enjoyable 10 days I have ever had.
Self Portrait of me would of course be on a day when I have been running in a million different directions since I got up at 7:30 am and now it is almost 3pm. Oh well, that's the life of a mom!!
What the kids are doing???? Today is a Thursday so when I pick her up from school, we come home have lunch, dessert, play a little and then she becomes a zombie in front of the TV for Dora The Explorer. ps.... I hope this picture is not considered inappropriate seeing that she is in her T-shirt and panties but I believe the rules were candid pictures...
My Closet since I only moved in 5 days ago is sad to say the least!!
Laundry room really actually does not exist. It is just a carved out area in the garage that has W/D connections. But, I do have to say that I am rather enjoying it. Its amazing to have a load running and not even hear it in the house.
The Refrigerator is one of the exciting things in my house. Since we have lived in apartments since we were married in 2003, they always come with refrigerators and usually ones with teenie tiny freezer sections so when we got to pick out a fridge all on our own it was a momentous occasion!!
Okay fine, and the inside too.....Oh my goodness, is that 3 gallons of blue bell in the freezer!!!
Favorite Room in the house for now would have to be Jaydens room because it is one of the only rooms that is finished so its the only on worth looking at......
yes I know, the batteries are going bad so the times are off on the clocks
The Master Bathroom is blah to say the least, hey don't forget I just moved in!!
The Kitchen sink is not too bad!
My Favorite Shoes are really ANY flip flops but these are the ones I had on!!
The End!!
So the rules to Snapshots Into My Life are simple. You just take pictures of what it asks you to the minute you want to do this. No fixing anything, no staging anything, just candid pictures.
Favorite Destination is Cozumel Mexico! I don't know if I will ever be able to go back to this place but it was the first real vacation we ever took as a family. It was one of the most enjoyable 10 days I have ever had.
Self Portrait of me would of course be on a day when I have been running in a million different directions since I got up at 7:30 am and now it is almost 3pm. Oh well, that's the life of a mom!!
What the kids are doing???? Today is a Thursday so when I pick her up from school, we come home have lunch, dessert, play a little and then she becomes a zombie in front of the TV for Dora The Explorer. ps.... I hope this picture is not considered inappropriate seeing that she is in her T-shirt and panties but I believe the rules were candid pictures...
My Closet since I only moved in 5 days ago is sad to say the least!!
Laundry room really actually does not exist. It is just a carved out area in the garage that has W/D connections. But, I do have to say that I am rather enjoying it. Its amazing to have a load running and not even hear it in the house.
The Refrigerator is one of the exciting things in my house. Since we have lived in apartments since we were married in 2003, they always come with refrigerators and usually ones with teenie tiny freezer sections so when we got to pick out a fridge all on our own it was a momentous occasion!!
Okay fine, and the inside too.....Oh my goodness, is that 3 gallons of blue bell in the freezer!!!
Favorite Room in the house for now would have to be Jaydens room because it is one of the only rooms that is finished so its the only on worth looking at......
yes I know, the batteries are going bad so the times are off on the clocks
The Master Bathroom is blah to say the least, hey don't forget I just moved in!!
The Kitchen sink is not too bad!
My Favorite Shoes are really ANY flip flops but these are the ones I had on!!
The End!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
We are finally in our new home!!!
I can not believe it finally happened!! After six years of marriage we are no longer living in an apartment. I am so excited and so proud of my husband for making this happen. We actually started moving in Wed. morning. My mother came down Thursday night and Jayden got a stomach virus early Thursday morning. So, moving was very interesting to say the least. However now we are in and boxes are everywhere but we are taking it one step at a time. The biggest adjustment is not for us though, it is for our cats. Since we have a yard now and my husband is slowly but SURELY becoming more allergic to them every day, we have put them outside. So far, they are not digging it but hopefully they will become acustomed to it. But boxes all over or not, I am thrilled about my new home!!
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