A prayer offered up in faith will restore the one who is sick...... James 5:15

Ok, I of all people I know canker sores and how painful they are. I have suffered with them my entire life or at least for as long as I can remember. I have had up to 4 in my mouth at a time. But something I just cant handle is when my daughter gets them. For a while at the beginning of the summer we were having problems with her getting them all the time till I read somewhere that it might be a vitamin deficiency so we put her on vitamins and after a few weeks her canker problems seemed to go away. Now we were down to her having a small one every now and then.

But this past week, two things happened:

1. We were moving and though it is no excuse and I cant help but think its my fault. I just got off schedule of making sure she took them everyday

2. She just had a bad bought of a stomach virus that the pharmacist said could leave her with some cankers due to the acidity she had when she was throwing up.

one or both of these I am guessing is the cause for two cankers in her mouth right now, one being the inside corner and about the size of my pinkie nail. It is so painful for her she can hardly swallow her own spit much less anything else. Its the kind of canker that simply throbs no matter what you do.

Last night was sleepless and she would wake up every hour moaning and discomforted by all the pain. This morning she got a few hours of sleep and then the rest of the day was accompanied by pain and no food and several random sips of milk. So, this afternoon I went to the pharmacist at HEB who told me about a over the counter medicine that I should try. When I got home she laid down on the couch and amazingly enough fell asleep for about 2 hours. When she woke up the pain was worse than ever and her cheek actually looked swollen and her lips dried and cracked from her lack of moving them and liquid inside her so I forced her to let me put this medicine on her sore. She was irate and screamed bloody murder but I guess it worked because she continued to sleep and then woke up in wonderful spirits and had 2 bowls of ice cream (I know, I am a horrible parent) and for the first time in two days she was in wonderful spirits and pain free.

The only downside was the almost 5 hour nap she took in the evening time. So here we are up till 11:45 playing because she cannot sleep. When I realized it was getting close to midnight and the medicine would be wearing off soon I told her to brush our teeth. For the first time in two days she let me get over and brush her teeth on that side of her mouth for like 2 seconds and then I could tell the pain was coming back, SO......... we went through the irate screaming one more time, I put the medicine on and then I drew a warm bath and bathed her, washed her hair and loved on her in the tub. I got her out put her jammies on, put her in bed and I don't think she stayed awake even a minute after that.

Now its 12:40am and I am so exhausted but more than anything I ache for my little girl. A three year old should not experience theses kinds of cankers. I hope it is nothing other than the side effects of her being sick and having that flu. I have prayed for her every night for the past two nights that God would take her pain away because I knew that He could and because He loves her more than Jonathan or I could love her. I wish he had chosen to take her pain away.

Faith is where I ALWAYS struggle. Its plain and simple, I don't have faith most of the time. I try to but deep down I guess a lot of times I don't feel he will answer my prayers. I take them to God already assuming He wont answer them and I know that's wrong. I know God says to ask in "faith" without any doubting but I think I ask things and pray for things already doubting and I don't even realize its my attitude. I need so much help in the area of faith. How do I build that up??

Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God." STILL ... what a simple concept and one I can not seem to accomplish.